Since Last we spoke....

Since last we spoke....


1.  I died and chopped my hair.  blonde, and yes I have been having way more fun. Not quite as much fun as I am hoping to have, I think once the cold dead winter passes that will pick up though. 
2.  I took an army PT test. I just really needed to know how I stacked up against the rest of the cadettes.  Need to keep my options open in case I am called up by the man to serve and protect.  I know being 4 months isn't the optimal time you might say to do this test, but I just really needed to know.  Allright, the truth here is I started going to work out in the mornings at the stake center and that is what we did on Wed.  I did ok.  I don't think I will be getting any calls to go serve on the front lines. 
3.  Max, my just barely turned 3 year old started pre-school 2 days a week.  He has social anxiety and so his teacher let him bring his blanket and he puts it over his head and peers out every now and again or he just covers himself and pretends he is not there.  She thinks once he is comfortable enough he will stop doing this. 
4.  I also recently wrote and starred in the sit com version of, Gone with the wind.  Okay that last one is just a dream of mine.


Enough with the list.  I have been having some real fears lately.  I must be pregnant because some of them have been absolutely ridiculous! No really, I cried myself to sleep one night over some of them.  The worst one,  I read an article that a 25 foot man eating crocodile was found of the banks of the Missouri river.  Wait, not Missouri, some river in India, NO It was Africa.  either way it freaked me out.  I am not sure why it freaked me out so much, clearly that river is nowhere near me, but what if I go there someday.  Now it will be like the Ocean, that beautiful dreamy body of water I will never set foot in because of the chance that a Shark will get me.  I am generally not afraid of people.  Not ever.  Even when I go running or am home alone I never think,  Oh what would I do If a burglar walked in.  I more think what will I do if a Tiger walks in!!  I know this makes no sense, but It is what it is. 


I have a lot more fears than just man eating crocadiles.  I have all the same fears I am sure most mothers do about their children.  Even though I have had 3 ultra sounds, I just keep fearing that something is terribly wrong and it has stopped me from being able to really think about names.  I have had some misscarriages and so I am sure this is why.  Well that is all for now.  I promise to update with some pictures next time.